Saturday, 19 December 2009

December House Moving. Kinda.

okay. Today is just a normal saturday right? WRONG. basically, my family/parents have decided that we're gunna get some works done on our house. Only it's not SOME. It's ALOT : New kitchen, new conservatory, Loft conversion, New dining room, new bedroom, new living room LITERALLY getting the whole house renewed. Sounds great right? I'll give you a few reasons why this is infact, terrible news.

1. My father is the most stressful person I know. He can't do anything without stressing himself out and everyone else around him. So many times, he has given me such a headache, I've started crying, due to the sheer PAIN.

2. We're renting a house to live in temporarily. This house may not have wi-fi. I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT THE INTERNET. This also means I can't talk to really special people Dx for like months. I actually suffer withdrawal symptoms if I have to go without facebook or chatango for more than a week :/

3. In the mornings, I'll have to wake up extra early ( I already wake up at 6am) to get to the train station on time. What's worse is that recently all the train timetables have changed, and so my first train is now at 7:31am compared to 7:36am. This may not sound like alot, but really, that 5 minutes can be the difference between getting to school on time, or 1/2 an hour late. SO! my new waking up time is 5am. ready to leave the house at around 7am. Joy.

and that's just a few reasons. Ugh. Anyway, so, okay. Today, we started to properly move out loads of furniture. Some of it's going to a storage company, some of it's going to the rented house. My parents were doing most of the lifting, and like I said, my pa can't do anything stress-free. All day he's been calling me and my brothers 'retards' and 'disabled' and just generally being a wanktard. My ma didn't really do anything, because this is my dad's normal behaviour in situations like this. I finally got so pissed off after he told me that I 'don't have the mental capacity to do anything' and that I ' should just leave and watch T.V or something'. Tbh, I did just that. I went and sat on my fat ass and did NOTHING. He then started COMPLAINING and asking me why I was sitting doing nothing and not helping. W.T.F

then my MOTHER started to get involved and started pissing at me. You can probably imagine how that went? But, the afternoon ended with my Dad calling me and my mum mentally ill. Wahay. Look out, I'm CRAAAYYYZZZYYY -_______-
whatever.

ooh. I uplaoded a new FB display pic, and ZOMFG HAYLEY LIKES IT. THATS SO WEIRD. SHE'S ONE OF THE COOL KIDS. wow. I feel so accepted :D
Omg Toby got FB o_o
yay :D
This is like when John got FB for Naireen. I love those two <3
eep. why did Ilona comment on my photo. woah. my new found fame :D i'm kidding. Me and michelle are laaaammee ~
well. I am :/
Michelle's cooler.
Okay. let's talk about people >:D
hm.actually, nothing really bad's happened. Caroline's annoying me more.
she always copies my notes, and in Biology she like, breathes all over me. its gross. Considering her breathe smells like the rotting food in her braces -.-
and she physically restrains me from writing if my hand gets in her way.
eurgh. I'm like
"Caroline, just go SIT AT THE FRONT OF THE CLASS"
(that way I wont have to be near you D:)
oh GOD and RACHEL. Michelle and I have noticed that she's SUCH a spoilt brat. she's so RUDE. we suspect it's because of her single child upbringing. Guh so annoying.

zomfg today my mother commented on how much make-up I use. Thing is, if I use less, people will see what an ugly piece of crap I am :/
I hate my face without make-up. It's alarmingly horrible. I just put that as my FB status. I wonder if people will comment. Nicole probably will. I like Nicole. More so now than ever before, and I have no idea why. I seem to talk to her more and have more in common than I ever thought. It's good :D

aaah my taste has changed so much. It used to be so ~ rock/emo/hardcore/death metal
I still like that stuff;; But now i listen to more~ Electronic/powerpop.
It's fresh ;D
omg Joshua Radin is so ~ <3>
His voice :DDD

" Lookin' from, a window above, like a story of love ~~can you hear me?" <3

"Wait. Right. Here. Is all she said to me ~ And so right here I stayed" <3

"So I crawl, underneath my blanket, where I can hide away. I know I can't take it; 'Cause I see now, it's just one of those days ~" <3

omg Owl City gig in Feb.
Excitement. >:D

This appears to be the end of my latest blog.
Farewell reader :)
Much love m'dear.



Thursday, 14 May 2009

ok

ok, can i just say,
friendship problems are so gay. it's like, ''I FUCKING HATE YOU" one minute and the next it's like "I'M SO SORRY TT__TT *grovelgrovelgrovel*

i mean, wtf. I don't understand. It's not that I'm not pleased that it's 'resolved', it's that, it just seems to easy...it's not normally that easy.people would be more stubborn, and un-willing to make up. 
gah PERFORMING ARTS is really sucking atm. too much bitching and humiliation. people think or act like they're the only ones who feel like shit sometimes and it's really pissing me off. It's like, I'm not really one of thoser people who talk about their insdie feelings alot , so maybe people just assume that i dont have anything wrong or troublesome.  AIYAA!! ugh , sometimes i really think they just advertise their feelings just to get some attention, and for people to get ideas about them, i really do. 
ergh and i hate ther way people act so different around different people. shen mei for example. she acts all cutesy around bake, but when she's with me or michelle or marion, she just acts normally. Bake acts all cute with shen mei too and it's like WTF DO YOU LOVE EACH OTHER OR SOMETHING?! idk. sometimes i feel like i just write/ think all this shit b/c i feel like i cant really act all cutesy. i'm too tall and i swear too much. i'm not sure if people feel intimidated by me or not? i think people prefere not to come to close to me. maybe people think i'm really fake. or maybe they just don't like me in the first place. it's not like that would be the first time.
GREAT NOW MICHELLE WANTS TO KNOW MY BLOGSPOT what should i say? o_O
yesnoyesnoyesnoyesnoyesnoyesno OH i might as well.........now i feel like i cant write what i think. ah well, it's not like she's gunna check it regularly xDD