ok

ok, can i just say,

friendship problems are so gay. it's like, ''I FUCKING HATE YOU" one minute and the next it's like "I'M SO SORRY TT__TT *grovelgrovelgrovel*

i mean, wtf. I don't understand. It's not that I'm not pleased that it's 'resolved', it's that, it just seems to easy...it's not normally that easy.people would be more stubborn, and un-willing to make up. 

gah PERFORMING ARTS is really sucking atm. too much bitching and humiliation. people think or act like they're the only ones who feel like shit sometimes and it's really pissing me off. It's like, I'm not really one of thoser people who talk about their insdie feelings alot , so maybe people just assume that i dont have anything wrong or troublesome.  AIYAA!! ugh , sometimes i really think they just advertise their feelings just to get some attention, and for people to get ideas about them, i really do. 

ergh and i hate ther way people act so different around different people. shen mei for example. she acts all cutesy around bake, but when she's with me or michelle or marion, she just acts normally. Bake acts all cute with shen mei too and it's like WTF DO YOU LOVE EACH OTHER OR SOMETHING?! idk. sometimes i feel like i just write/ think all this shit b/c i feel like i cant really act all cutesy. i'm too tall and i swear too much. i'm not sure if people feel intimidated by me or not? i think people prefere not to come to close to me. maybe people think i'm really fake. or maybe they just don't like me in the first place. it's not like that would be the first time.

GREAT NOW MICHELLE WANTS TO KNOW MY BLOGSPOT what should i say? o_O

yesnoyesnoyesnoyesnoyesnoyesno OH i might as well.........now i feel like i cant write what i think. ah well, it's not like she's gunna check it regularly xDD